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I don't want to hide anymore. by ~Yumiko-Amaya:iconYumiko-Amaya:

Categories Literature > Poetry > Family Life > Spoken Word


I am not stupid. I am not weak. I am not stupid. I am not weak.
I am not stupid. I am not weak. I am not stupid. I am not weak.
I am not stupid. I am not weak. I am not stupid. I am not weak.

He can't hurt me anymore. He can't touch me anymore. He can not scare me
anymore. He can not beat me anymore. He can not make me cry anymore.
He can not make me hide anymore. He can not speak to me anymore. He
can not make me run anymore. He can't make me who he is. He can't
hurt mommy anymore. He can't hurt Paul anymore. He can't do time
for what he did anymore.
Fuck you, Keith.

Daddy wasn't here for me. Daddy killed two girls. Daddy likes to drink. Daddy
likes to do drugs. Daddy doesn't love me. Daddy never loved me. Daddy
never showed me how to play catch. Daddy never helped me with my
homework. Daddy never taught me how to drive. Daddy didn't drop me off at
school. Daddy didn't tell my boyfriends to bring me home on time. Daddy
didn't protect me. Daddy makes me cry. Daddy wasn't there for me. Daddy, I hate you.
Fuck you, Daddy.

I want to be loved. I want to be cared for. I want to be taught things. I want
to be congratulated on achievements. I want to have fun. I want to have friends.
I want to get straight A's. I want to be a great artist. I want to sing out
loud. I want to have a normal family. I want to be a better parent than the ones I
have. I want to love. I want to teach. I want to start over.
Fuck you, Family.

I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to be afraid anymore. I don't
want to remember what happened. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I don't
want to screw up anymore. I don't want to hide anymore.
©2009 ~Yumiko-Amaya
:iconyumiko-amaya:

Author's Comments

It is mostly a rant about stuff I'm feeling and shit I've gone through.
And the part where he killed two girls is true. Drunk driving accident.

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:icontheravenborn:
Mood: Wow! ~TheRavenBorn Feb 28, 2009, 11:11:57 AM
expressive feelings.

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Make Awkward Sexual advances. Not War.

STATUS: tapping my foot
:icondivulged:
*Divulged Feb 28, 2009, 11:24:49 AM
That is a lot of things.
:iconyumiko-amaya:
~Yumiko-Amaya Feb 28, 2009, 12:28:09 PM
Yup.

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Signatures are over-rated...
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~killervamp1990 Feb 28, 2009, 1:50:02 PM
wow kayla. just wow. its good to express how you feel and no keith will never hurt you again as long as john and i are still living we will protect you.

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don't make me bite u.... u might like it TOO much

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Fact:
5 out of 6 people will enjoy playing Russian Roulette
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~millerstavern Feb 28, 2009, 10:08:14 PM
You can really tell this all came directly from your heart. It didn't take any detours along the way, which is a good thing. I like the repetition you used, as well.

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Satan invented the dinosaurs...
:iconyumiko-amaya:
~Yumiko-Amaya Mar 1, 2009, 12:34:15 AM
Thanks. And it really did. I was really upset at the time and just picked up my sketchpad. I had planned to draw, but instead words came out.
And thanks. That part wasn't planned either. But now that I think about it, none of my stuff isn't planned.

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Signatures are over-rated...
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